On the Verge

This month was like fucking e, all peace, love and happiness but the throwback it's such a fucking bitch.

I did a party on the beginning of the month that some might argue that was more successful than the last and we all know the first one was legendary. This one was as legendary but I can't take 100% of the credit for it because Edmy brought a shit load of people. I had an okay time.

Miriam and them came over the next weekend but I think is such a shame I either have old ass friends or fucking fags for friend that would rather spend time watching gay ass ufc instead of 10 super hot single girls that brought their own fucking alcohol!

Christmas was good at Sandra's, much better than expected. I went to Ana's and that was good too. I missed Darren's party thanks to again to my gayass friends. Lisa didn't work out. I feel as in limbo and don't wanna do shit. All this fucking people always expect me to have all the fucking answers. Fuck that!! Don't get me wrong, I know there are people out there that love me very very very much, but I just want to be alone for a while. I don't know what's going to happen tomorrow, fuck it, I'm just going with the flow from today till something changes. I should get a hair cut *sigh

ps I miss Mari so much and I kind of wanna cry.

Moonlight Sonata

I remember being around 10 and asking my dad the name of Moonlight Sonata during a road trip; it really stuck in my head. I grew up in an tropical island and to me Moonlight Sonata sounded foreign, like the soundtrack for a movie set in a cold and foggy place like North France. I would picture a castle and a romantic but tragic story. Dracula-esq. But to be honest, other than Beethoven's 5, 7 & 9 symphonies and Vivaldi's seasons, I don't think could name much else.

Little Girl

Do you believe in fate? I don't know if I do, but I hope it works out.

Saturday is my party. Surprisingly I'm not that nervous. I'll be happy if 10 people show up.

Tameka is being really weird by offering no support. I think is because I didn't include her in the planning.

Today I'll fix things up a bit a home and tomorrow music.

-Wilbert

Knowing The Future

I think it's crazy how some people are so set on knowing what's going to happen. I plan in the big scheme of things, instead of micro managing my every move. Relax, everything is going be alright kids.


-Wilbert

Moment Of Win

This happened like 2 years ago, I was behind on one of my credit cards, even went to a collector. This company knew no reason. They would call me, no exaggeration, 13 times a day! A lot of those calls would be in a row.

One day I decided to research about this company. Ultimately, I found out the number of their CEO! Since this guys would be the only ones calling me at 10am I forward all my calls to their CEO. They stopped calling within 2 days.

I like Miss Mikalove

I think she's the only female friend that I don't have any type of desire but click with in a friend level. I feel lucky to found a good friend at my age. I didn't think it was possible.

Girl Drama

WTF?!? I have no idea why they are sucking me into this weird drama with Michelle. She has done nothing to me, so why should I act otherwise. I'm getting too old for this.


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Limbo

A ton of things have been going wrong, a ton of fines, with the loves and with my roomies. I'm at my mom's right now. It's a bright and sunny day Fall day full of ops. I'm hopeful that change is around the corner. I finally getting around to fixing my cars completelly, my house might sell and I have never been closer to my Bffs.

Next goals are to go to Tokyo, Florence and to move to Philly. I already feel better :)


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Dave Mathew's band

I freaking won tix to their show!!! I don't really like them, but I see it as a sign that things are on the up!

Prospects

Thanks to my "lifestyle", I think I managed to lose interest on all the females I was courting but one. Let's call her, Sweetness. I like her so much that I would hate myself if I hurt her. The only thing stopping me from going full on is that seems a bit flaky at times. I am going to ask her out this weekend. Let's see how things go.

Total Honesty

I decided to be completely honest with others and myself. I lost a ton of friends. In fact most friends. I felt lonely during August and I lost Heather. I miss her sometimes, especially when it comes to doing crazy adventures. *sigh

Lone Wolf Mode: Full ON!!

I feel like the only person that truly ever got me was Heather. I won't lie, I miss her a lot!! Bad influence and all, she was the most fun I'll probably ever have with another person.

I'm getting to the point that I'm starting to hate me current roaster of friends. This week I've met people like Elliot (Lyfestyle) and Monica (yelp). Amazing folks. FMFs. I'm going back to being a loner for a while. All they do is stifle my flow. I need to look for more Heathers out there willing to go with the flow and not be so broke.

Buddy!!

It's never good when you are referred by the girl you like as such. I would normally think, FML, but I guess it could be worst. Now, how can I turn this around? Or do I even want to?

West Chester Part 2

I moved in Monday June 15 in a High St Apt. The very first day Heather, Tameka and I had a super crazy party of 3 people. The cops came! but they were nice though. Came to work drunk, I don't think anyone notice though. I missed Dub-C.

I'm Not Going To Think About Her

Tales Of Mere Existence

Homelessness

I got less than two weeks to move out of my place. I got two places to pick, one happy and one dark/mysterious. I think I'm picking happy :)

Birthdays

For some reason, I don't like celebrating of my bday. I really don't. Too much presure. I think people expect way too fucking much out of me and to be honest I have not a clue where this expectations come from in the first place. I just want to reflect and plan my next year, is that too much to ask?

I wish I was dumber

I triple analyze what should be simple situations. Fuck! I wish I couldn't read you like a book. Times like now make for a great point for ignorance being bliss. I need to start listening to my dick more often. So frustrating.

No call, Yes show.

I think how the females in my circle are. 90% of them will never, never call. It's not like I'm waiting next to the phone for a call or a txt. But I used to gauge interest on the calls receive..... let me stfu before I get in trouble ;)

I feel too blessed

I have not rights to complain in anyway, so thank you to the powers that be. God or destiny? Or may God's destiny? Everything is going as it should but yet I've not stopped to kung fu grip till disaster comes.

V-day and Single? What a weird felling, I haven't been single on V-day since I started liking girls! Oh well, I feel great and why do I have all this guilt about it.

Proud

I'm can't believe I asked that girl out. It's crazy how we built up people in our minds and secretly sabotaging ourselves with our crazy ass thoughts. It's all about being assertive , confidence & a dick in a box.

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Now playing: Little Boots - Stuck on Repeat
via FoxyTunes

Wow

En estos dias ni me conosco, my current goal is to do as I think to the letter. Bumming out all day, 8am after hour, going for o.p.p.s, etc. 99 problems but cookie is not one.

E=More Cup Cakes^2

99 Problems but a cookie ain't one!

Cookie Monster Rap vs. Jay Z

Home

I always wondered, what is it? Is it a state of mind or simply a place to place your belongings? Now a days I have no idea. In limbo. I have an amazing apartment but I couldn't be more detached from it. Some days I day dream that home somewhere far away like japan or Hawaii. Or maybe home is to be in the arms of that you love the most, things, an individual or just a fantasy.

Salt

Never forget how some people are just not meant to be for you. You can never win them all.

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Chicken King!

I was doing some Christmas shopping the day before Christmas (that how I roll) and stupid ass Burger King ran out of burger meat!!! WTF. I had to make a note of that.

Days before I move

I am a bit nervous. I know I'll miss and I'm not completely sure why I'm doing this. It's def too late to back out now. I'm know everything is going to be just fine.

It's funny though how she does thing that would be rank high in the fucked up scale and I do something mild to avoid a confrontation and she blows it out of proportion.

I always preach about taking a chance, but I'm scared. Right now. But I had to be done, hopefully she get her priorities straight. I really hate my generation. No honor and pure selfishness.